I'm moving to Canada! I can't decide between Vancouver or Montreal but it's decided. I'm thinking Vancouver because they have AHMAZING ski slopes and snow fall. Then I wouldn't be far from LA as well but still quite far away from Europe and around 14 hours behind Melbourne Australia time. Certainly will e difficult to keep in touch. Oh well, byes guiizz!
I just realised that I free very much like the typical 'art' student especially with my coat and hair colour. People must look at me and wonder what the hell I'm doing in Science. But I love it.
So the bitch is back and stronger than ever. I'm back to my usual ways with people; not that I really ever ceased my general behaviour but I did try being different for a while and I still dislike it. Now people can't say that I haven't tried it or done it recently. Was that what it was all about? Probably. Did I feel good toying with their mind? HELL YES!
It's good to be back.
Rage more?
I'm so overwhelmed with feelings. I think I'm like the Grinch and my tiny heart isn't used to it. I'm not used to these feelings and they should feel good right? But I jut feel scared, sad, anxious, worries, angry and somehow numb.
I don't know if I want this or if I can handle it. I just need a hug. A long one. No talking, just silence.
Rage more?
I seriously need to find something to do during my 3 our break of Tuesday. Like, building a fort, that would be fun and productive. Damn Monash for being in the middle of nowhere.