Generally I would say that new things are lovely and exciting but this is scary and not the good kind of scary. I'm up to term 2 of year 12 which is slightly comforting because I only have 2 more terms of my high school years which I am so happy about. I can't wait until I am out of high school... I am sick of all the bullying, judgement and looks I get from everyone. There are enough rumours about me at this school that I feel like they know or have made me an alter or other personality. This term is a big one, I have sooooo many SACs (school assessment tests if you don't know, except they actually count towards my end of year score). Also, in less than a week I have my formal which is the equivalent to a prom except we only have our senior "prom". I finally have everything though... my dress, bling, clutch and shoes. Lastly I had my usual staff meeting today at work and I need to finish my level 1 qualifications and send in my form for my working with children's certificate because I am turning 18 this year.
Luckily at the end of this long 11 week term I am seeing mother monster... yes I am seeing mother fucking LADY GAGA!! I AM READY TO BALL!!
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Sunday 15 April 2012
Wednesday 4 April 2012
I want to fuck him gently with a chainsaw
So I go from 'Happiness is a strange feeling' to this.. Yeah I know,
not very good but there was a reason I said happiness was a strange
feeling.
Firstly I want to say if anyone I know is reading this, you should probably learn from it! I am so sick of people not believing me when I say I am not some innocent, helpless, dependent child.
Anyway back on topic. I am completely independent and I don't rely on anybody. I am a complete bitch who enjoys seeing friends fight and I think it brings out the best in people. However one of my "friends" is having trouble believing me. HELLO? Rule #1. She is the oldest of all our friends by quite a bit and the least mature. She had a little cry because I and my best friend wouldn't tell her what pre formal party we were going to. Grow up. We were saving you from hurt because she is our best girlfriend and you aren't. This is an exert from my last message which she hasn't replied to: "What do you want the truth? Is that really what you want because if you really want ME to tell you everything then I will but I hope you can handle it."
Secondly, she just got a new boyfriend who used to be one of my closest friends but now he is just a jerk to me. Ugh, I hate it when that happens. Can you say whipped? He also used to like another close friend of mine but she turned him down, he wanted to commit suicide and now he's with her... little suspicious don't you think? Now he thinks he's a complete badass but really he's just annoying. He also called me gay and teased me. He is the reason there are so many teenagers committing suicide.
Don't mess with me. Yeah, I'm good at playing the bitch game, I always win so don't you dare cross me, the last person that did isn't doing so well. They were kicked out and now I never have to see them again.
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Firstly I want to say if anyone I know is reading this, you should probably learn from it! I am so sick of people not believing me when I say I am not some innocent, helpless, dependent child.
Anyway back on topic. I am completely independent and I don't rely on anybody. I am a complete bitch who enjoys seeing friends fight and I think it brings out the best in people. However one of my "friends" is having trouble believing me. HELLO? Rule #1. She is the oldest of all our friends by quite a bit and the least mature. She had a little cry because I and my best friend wouldn't tell her what pre formal party we were going to. Grow up. We were saving you from hurt because she is our best girlfriend and you aren't. This is an exert from my last message which she hasn't replied to: "What do you want the truth? Is that really what you want because if you really want ME to tell you everything then I will but I hope you can handle it."
Secondly, she just got a new boyfriend who used to be one of my closest friends but now he is just a jerk to me. Ugh, I hate it when that happens. Can you say whipped? He also used to like another close friend of mine but she turned him down, he wanted to commit suicide and now he's with her... little suspicious don't you think? Now he thinks he's a complete badass but really he's just annoying. He also called me gay and teased me. He is the reason there are so many teenagers committing suicide.
Don't mess with me. Yeah, I'm good at playing the bitch game, I always win so don't you dare cross me, the last person that did isn't doing so well. They were kicked out and now I never have to see them again.
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Archie's rules
I have a few rules and they go something like this.
1. Always trust/believe me
2. Always take me seriously
3. Remember, I AM a bitch
4. Never hurt or insult my friends/family
5. You're not alive until you're living
6. Never abide by rules #1 and #2
Now I know that my last rule completely contradicts my first 2 rules but it is there for a reason which my friends would understand. I sort of have a split personality and I would say 85% of the time you should listen to rule 1 and 2 but that other 15% generally means I am in a funny mood and I'm going to make jokes and fool around so don't take anything I say to heart. My close friends understand this fully as we insult each other daily but it's just an informal register which creates an intimate relationship between us (little bit of English Language course coming out there).
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1. Always trust/believe me
2. Always take me seriously
3. Remember, I AM a bitch
4. Never hurt or insult my friends/family
5. You're not alive until you're living
6. Never abide by rules #1 and #2
Now I know that my last rule completely contradicts my first 2 rules but it is there for a reason which my friends would understand. I sort of have a split personality and I would say 85% of the time you should listen to rule 1 and 2 but that other 15% generally means I am in a funny mood and I'm going to make jokes and fool around so don't take anything I say to heart. My close friends understand this fully as we insult each other daily but it's just an informal register which creates an intimate relationship between us (little bit of English Language course coming out there).
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